A little soul

I think I lack of biotin again. I’d better start eating peanuts, cashews and almonds. I guess that biotin deficiency is the reason why my skin is so messed up. Eating fruits is not enough, nothing is ever fucking enough. You can’t take care of everything all at once. I’ve never been an attention seeker and I hate those who are; whether suffering from inferiority complex or not, I don’t care. But my body is asking for attention more than ever in my entire life. All of a sudden, I don’t like coke anymore. I don’t like energy drinks anymore. I’ve become sensitive to caffeine! To be honest, caffeine never worked as an energizer and now it’s even giving me headache. The only caffeine drink I can consume is tea (green, black, anything) and a weak coffee. But from now on, no more energy drinks or coke. It’s not just the caffeine, but also the amount of sugar which is available in those drinks – tastes terrible. It’s so weird that my tongue had never noticed that in the past. I don’t even like drinks that contain sweeteners or aspartame. You can taste that unnatural stuff forever on your tongue. Again, I never noticed that in the past. Chewing gum is the same; once I’ve finished that pack, I won’t buy any new ones anymore. So many people are attracted to flavour enhancer; me too sometimes. Often when I eat out with people, they tend to say “Why does the food you eat in restaurants taste so much better than at home?” Well, isn’t it obvious?

A friend of mine has moved to Kiel to study. She doesn’t admit, but I think she’s having a tough time to adapt to her new life. That’s very cute.  I think she’s not aware yet how lucky she really is. People who are ready for changes are the most courageous and most interesting people ever. I like them. At least they are not boring.

I have a little obsession with digital clocks. I can’t help adding those digits together when looking at my alarm clock. It’s freaky. Do you remember my blog from a while ago, where I multiplied all numbers with nine? There is one number I forgot to write down. Now here it is: the other day I paid attention to three cars that drove past me, one after the other. I added up their license numbers and all three of them equaled 6. There you have your triple 6. Whether you add those 6’s together or multiply them, they’ll equal 9.  I know what you’re thinking: you’re thinking that I haven’t got a life. And you’re correct. Right now I really don’t.

I found my favourite song by the band Pulp . I never knew why I loved that song, but now I do. It has always reminded me of how much I don’t want to become a mother. I cannot even look after plants, you see.

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