Commentary on Somewhat Damaged

The title, borrowed from Nine Inch Nails, has nothing much to do with the novel itself. Throughout the writing process I was listening to Depeche Mode and even now, during redrafting, I need that music in order to access my protagonist’s habits, quirks and entire psychology, such as motivation, self-contradiction and unreliability. It’s funny writing about someone who you’ll never be and after all that’s all you are – your alter-ego. I’ve been working on this novel since 2007 and after all these years I am still trying to trace down the origin of this pursuit that made me venture into something so big – bigger than I’d ever want a dream to be. In 2007, Nick, my tutor in Prose Fiction, asked us to do a writing exercise illustrating a connection between character and object. He gave us a list of objects, which weren’t ordinary objects, but tainted objects with a history. I chose the ‘blood-stained plaster’ to pursue a yet to evolve imagination. It was there in the back of my head, slowly bubbling out reaching my mind’s quixotic surface of genuine lies. Although those were only fragmentary images I knew that the energy anticipated was highly influenced by Bret Easton Ellis’ grotesque and sex-induced madness which would lead me towards my own version of a yet undiscovered territory of fragile insanity. The result of that writing exercise involves an obsessive compulsive doctor who is subject to taking blood samples of herself as well as all her patients. When on a date with a non-patient, she deliberately causes an accident that hospitalises him just because an examination of his blood is essential for future decisions. I received a full mark for that piece and I had only received a full mark twice at BCUC and I have to admit that I was incredibly proud. Nick had not only inspired me to that but had also supported me in pursuing my other novel Single, Fused & Separate, which is an undeveloped, science fiction-based novel that I had left untouched since September 2007 after the dissertation deadline. During the course I was mostly reading science fiction literature: Asimov, Dick, Siodmak, Cook, Gibson, etc. Nonetheless, I was struggling with the actual destined path of that novel and realised that I was not yet ready to walk it. Despite the lack of identity and conscious progress of that novel I received an acceptable mark for my final dissertation; I was 9 points away from the full mark. With that achievement I still lacked the motivation to continue a piece that was...

Interview with Phil Sgrosso from As I Lay Dying / 26th Nov 2010 @ Koko/London...

So how has the tour been so far? In Germany specifically! Did anything fun happen? – The few shows in Germany were great. The venues were packed; all the kids were going crazy. It’s great to be back there. And now you’re in the UK where the food is unpleasant…I think I read on Tim’s twitter that he’s not keen on British food. What have you been eating mostly since you’ve been here? – Oh we actually found a Chipotle here. We have that back at home and usually when you find Chipotle while you are on tour in the States – it’s always a special occasion. I think everyone in the band went there today. Tim got himself four burritos! And yesterday in Norwich we went to Nando’s. So I guess we’ve been eating alright! What are the other bands like? Do you get on well? Their styles are rather different from yours, aren’t they? – Yeah, personally I think everyone on tour is awesome. We’re sharing a bus with Suicide Silence and we instantly became really good friends and we’re having a good time together. And we’ve known Heaven Shall Burn for years, so it’s been a really fun tour so far. Every year you guys seem to be touring with amazing bands. So which tour has been the most memorable so far? – I think every time we tour with Killswitch Engage, Unearth or In Flames. Every time we do tours or festivals together, it’s fun hanging out with those bands. But I guess one of the most memorable tours was when we opened for Killswitch and In Flames years ago back in the US… I remember thinking that it was a pivotal moment of our career to start and we were moving on to bigger and better things. And, I think it was in 2006, we played along with Cannibal Corpse, In Flames, The Black Dahlia Murder, Trivium, Machine Head, etc. That tour was probably one of the coolest for us as a headliner, you know, to play after all these amazing bands. I read in an interview that you no longer wish to headline anymore in future, why is that? – Well, we’ve kind of grown out of this idea of just to headline all the time whereas there are so many bigger bands out there that we can support. Therefore I think at this point of the career it would be nice to move on to better opportunities and have bigger bands to take us out hopefully. We just got to this point where...

Interview with Alkaline Trio – Hamburg 23rd Jan 2009...

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Interview with Jeff Ling & Luke Kilpatrick (Parkway Drive) – Hamburg 26th Nov 2008...

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Interview with HateSphere – Hamburg 7th Sep 2008...

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Interview with Tuesday – Berlin Popkomm September 2008...

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