P-chan's messy head
You can disappear now.
When you feel nothing major, you feel no motivation to learn or create. You don’t even have the energy to reply to friends. It’s hard to say what happens to you when you get older. It’s not wisdom that comes with age; it’s apathy. Like from hereon, the heart dies faster than you had first Read More …
This book is 110 years old and more relevant than anything I’ve read recently. I read this 600-page Bildungsroman within three months and did not want it to end. There is no joy in finishing one book after the other when you can savour the protagonist’s experiences slowly, and that’s when you’re fully invested in Read More …
It feels good to listen to music that you love. Working all week with chill lo-fi in the background helps keep you in that regular work bubble without associating anything else with it. The last thing you want is your favourite music running while working. It’s interesting how certain types of music connect our thoughts Read More …
There is nothing worth reporting in this current phase of life except that all is stagnant. The last thing I want is to catch up with friends or acquaintances and talk about how nothing has changed. Deep connections were either never there in the first place, or they faded due to people changing, different life Read More …
Sun Square Mars—How do you navigate the suffocating emotions towards productive and creative outlets when you don’t have the means to recharge? This is when the craving for escape becomes the strongest, but still, it’s not strong enough to convince me to do what I need to do. Having just one foot out the door Read More …
You look at people, and they bore the hell out of you because you won’t ever know them. Their facade is intact, whereas yours is not. Why do they make all that effort to hide what’s beneath? Most human interaction is surface-level, and it makes me want to cry sometimes. Not many people enjoy bonding Read More …
It is funny and weird that I stumbled across someone who is currently doing the same master’s degree as I did in 2010—same class, same tutor. Of course, it had me reminiscing about that time. But what bothers me the most about all that is realising how fast ten years can pass and how soon Read More …
Over a month ago, I told my close friends something I was going to do, and they all stood by me and agreed it was for the better. I have always been firm with my decisions and would do everything I deemed right. But I failed to stay firm. The same applies to last year Read More …
One chance after the other and facing your own faults for not speaking up earlier. Some people can only bottle up anxiety, anger, and frustration for so long. But some people don’t do that. They don’t waste time with second chances; they act fast and order immediate results. So you continue to put your own Read More …
When people ask me why I like to read violent stories so much, they have no idea how I connect with fiction. It’s not reality. But the regular non-fiction reader often doesn’t know how to approach fiction books. When I first read American Psycho in 2005, I was going through a phase where I would’ve Read More …
