What a day. I felt happy and sad at the same time. Surely you’ll get me wrong if I tell you about it and think it’s a psychological condition.
I was wondering whether it’s worth keeping your heroes or not. I’m talking about real-life people (those you have never met). You think you know so much about them, but the truth is that you merely know chapters of their lives or whatever they are known for. Therefore, your idea of them makes them your heroes. Ultimately that’s the reason why you admire them.
You don’t realise is that as time goes by, people change. They have probably found their identity, got engaged and are happy now, watching romantic comedies with their loved ones, etc.
In the past, your hero was nothing like that. He was going through rollercoaster phases in his life. Music and writing were the only things that kept him sane and prevented him from killing himself. He produced music to express and reflect on himself, communicate with people who felt the same. I felt the same. I thought I had found a soulmate. I felt the same pain and anger and cried the same amount of tears.
So what if that person has changed drastically? In a positive way but you can’t relate?
Of course, you are happy for him. He has reached the stage of well-deserved happiness. However, you envy him because you don’t know how far you have to go until you get there too. It took him about twenty years.
How far will I have to go? I’m not as intelligent and talented as him, so it might take me my entire life.
The only sad thing is that you don’t identify yourself as much with his latest music. It’s not the same. Though, to him, the past songs have passed the stage of redemption. It’s like the songs have transcended into something else.
I’m trying to remain optimistic. People change, and nothing is more significant than changing for the better.
I still love this man. For what he has created: a channel of release for those who are suffering inside.
After all, he is my second hero.
J. L. taught me the significance of honesty and individuality. He gave me confidence and taught me to think for myself at a young age. J. has made me the person that I am now. I’ve been this way since I was 16. He hasn’t changed, and he never will. He will always be controversial to a degree that people either love or hate him. If good people stay loyal to themselves, they won’t ever change. And he is the best example.
Some people (including J.L.) say that heroes are useless. But to have a hero is still better than choosing some religion. Kids tend to look up to their parents and view them as heroes, and nothing is wrong with that. What’s more beautiful than having someone wise who can teach you their life lessons? It gives you opportunities to explore your own mind and set valuable goals. Your heroes only lead you to a roundabout. The rest is up to you.
I know happiness is meant for everyone at some point. Your heroes are the best motivation.