P-chan's messy head
In the last 26 hours, I’ve only had about three and a half hours of sleep. Let’s say I’ve been working—for no money. This is always the case with me. I choose something I enjoy doing, but it doesn’t pay. I’m a volunteer music copywriter. Other people in my shoes would complain. But I don’t Read More …
1 x 9 = 9 2 x 9 = 18 -> 1 + 8 = 9 3 x 9 = 27 -> 2 + 7 = 9 4 x 9 = 36 -> 3 + 6 = 9 5 x 9 = 45 -> 4 + 5 = 9 6 x 9 = 54 -> Read More …
So full of __ and I don’t even know how I’ve managed to spread myself so thin the last couple of weeks. I’ve still not __, either. It’s horrible at __ when the employees who get on with each other gather in the common room and leave me alone on __. You sit there and Read More …
Isn’t it weird that there are moments you choose to freeze? It’s not quite autumn yet, so wearing long sleeve cotton pyjamas would be too warm. Therefore, you pick some random medium-sized t-shirt, and you wear nothing else except that and panties. Of course, the window is open, but the door is closed because others Read More …
It’s obvious what’s happening with me right now. And I still deny myself, my feelings and such…I seem to encounter self-denial in my life all the time as if an identity crisis wasn’t bad enough. At least I know what’s good for me. Though, I’ll have to give myself a second chance. But the question Read More …
The biggest lie you ever told [You’re not the best mother ever] Your deepest fear about growing old [Dying] The longest night you ever spent [In England. Over 24 hrs of sleeplessness] The angriest letter you never sent [To my Catholic host mother] The boy you swore you’d never leave [I only said I’d be Read More …
Right this very moment, it’s 4:55 a.m. I have a big headache, and I can’t sleep. I started hugging myself during Let’s make a night to remember in bed and thought it might be a better idea to get out of bed again and start writing. Yes, otherwise, I would’ve started touching myself to Bryan Adams. This Read More …
It’s past 1 a.m., and my time begins now. I have Darkest Hour on repeat because I feel that melodic metalcore could purge my ears. Apathy has filled the day, leading to self-denial and disillusionment. What’s worse is I didn’t know what to do about it. I lack courage. It’s nothing new that my ex Read More …
(Please note: Pictures are only posted on Myspace) Many of you have been asking me to post some tattoo pictures, and I promised. However, I will only post the pictures on my Facebook blog. The explanations are here: 1. Tattoo on right arm – The Question Mark That was my first tattoo—a so-called semi-permanent Read More …