P-chan's messy head
So I slept for 12 hours the other day. The kidney caused this sudden tiredness. Or maybe it was the new pill – I don’t know. I shall find out at the doctor’s this afternoon… I can’t help believing that there’s something uncontrollably wrong with my mind and body – like an inappropriate collision is Read More …
Last night at precisely 1:51 a.m., the breathing of a man waked me —someone was exhaling. I thought I had brought a dream into reality, but I was only in a hypnopompic state. Nevertheless, I looked around my room to make sure. There was nobody. Then the breathing repeated. I wasn’t sure anymore whether the Read More …
“I do not know how much of my writing is true, or which parts (if any) are true. This is a potentially lethal situation. We have fiction mimicking truth, and truth mimicking fiction. We have a dangerous overlap, a dangerous blur. And in all probability it is not deliberate. In fact, that is part of the Read More …
A friend said my love life bore a high resemblance to everything Shakespeare – unrequited love due for a miracle. When I hear Shakespeare, I don’t think about love. Instead, I have images of death, despair, madness and vengeance swirling around in my head. This may be because I only have two favourites: Hamlet – Read More …
I don’t resent the person for making me feel this way, although I’m finding it hard to breathe today. I thought my bra was pressing too hard, so I took it off – I still couldn’t breathe in deeply. So I opened the window and meditated for ten minutes – better. I don’t like how Read More …
I’m eating a plate full of chips, pie and broccoli with so much ketchup on top of it all. Just because I can’t stop pressing that fucking tube. When placing a piece of ketchup-covered broccoli into my mouth, I imagine it’s a dead caterpillar; it’s overcooked and tastes soft. Then I have a chip that Read More …
It only dawned on me today that I’m probably too late. The reason why I admire E. is that she is beyond beautiful and has a fantastic job. And she gets the men she wants while I’m continuously rejecting those that I don’t want – no matter how wonderful they are. I’m not looking for Read More …
I just spent three full hours thinking. Just thinking. Not meditating. Not writing. I’ve been asking myself questions that I have heard today. Questions to which I surely knew the answers, but for some reason, I couldn’t say them because they had disappeared within a wink. If this reflects my uncertainty, then I’m quite ashamed Read More …