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For a moment, I thought I may need an ADHD assessment, which is bullshit. I suppose I was trying to look for something new to explore, except that self-diagnosis isn’t a medical diagnosis. However, you still know yourself the best and want to do something about the negativity holding you back. And taking that first Read More …
It has been a good ten years or more since I thought I had a stalker from Virginia. I knew for a fact that an ex (from almost 20 years ago) was stalking me for a long time, and I had good reasons to believe that. Though based in the UK, I thought he was Read More …
Did you know that without healthy gutters to redirect stormwater away from your property, you could risk a series of problems like a basement flood, roof and foundation damage, and water damage in your house siding? I write about these things regularly, so I suppose I know what I’m talking about, except that it’s easier Read More …
There aren’t many words in the song “Eat The Elephant,” but there are enough to cover the essential occurrences in the past month or year. Maynard sings about a looming omnipresence, but I have to define omnipresence in my own terms (without wanting to be solipsistic). It’s the presence of everybody else but you; it’s Read More …
It’s probably not a good sign when you become anxious about blogging, especially when the last entry has been a while and has expressed no meaningful intent whatsoever. Suppose you had much more to say back in the day because many things had mattered, or at least you believed they did. The truth is that Read More …
My book choices have been pretty grim, but you want to see how far you can go when you’re running out of things to relate to. Here’s my two-month-old Osamu Dazai’s “No longer human” and Junji Ito’s comic adaptation review; I’ve been hesitant about posting it. I picked up Dazai’s novel with high expectations but Read More …
Since I started working full-time, there haven’t been many time gaps for personal writing and reading. I even agreed on an additional contractual position, which is project-to-project. Luckily, they’ve been cancelling and delaying projects which is fine because otherwise, I’d be working to a point I wouldn’t know who I was anymore. Those who know Read More …
[*includes some spoilers*] The trailer had me judge the series too soon. Seeing masked men in red and a bunch of people wearing green tracksuits just didn’t strike me as interesting. In fact, movies like Hunger Games, Battle Royal, The Purge, Hostel, Would You Rather, and other stuff went through my head, and I Read More …
One of the worst feelings is when you fail yourself. You brand yourself a failure despite knowing that you can do better, however, under different circumstances. Every little sprinkle of optimism helps as long as the person conveys it right. Did you realise that Saturn is in retrograde? I wasn’t paying much attention to it, Read More …
We’re past solstice, which is why 30*C doesn’t feel as hot as it did in late June. With how fast continental climates heat up and cool down, I can’t find stability in my mind. It’s like not receiving enough time to recover from something. It seems to worsen my ever-growing homesickness too. I long for Read More …