P-chan's messy head
Sun Square Mars—How do you navigate the suffocating emotions towards productive and creative outlets when you don’t have the means to recharge? This is when the craving for escape becomes the strongest, but still, it’s not strong enough to convince me to do what I need to do. Having just one foot out the door Read More …
You look at people, and they bore the hell out of you because you won’t ever know them. Their facade is intact, whereas yours is not. Why do they make all that effort to hide what’s beneath? Most human interaction is surface-level, and it makes me want to cry sometimes. Not many people enjoy bonding Read More …
It is funny and weird that I stumbled across someone who is currently doing the same master’s degree as I did in 2010—same class, same tutor. Of course, it had me reminiscing about that time. But what bothers me the most about all that is realising how fast ten years can pass and how soon Read More …
[*includes some spoilers*] The trailer had me judge the series too soon. Seeing masked men in red and a bunch of people wearing green tracksuits just didn’t strike me as interesting. In fact, movies like Hunger Games, Battle Royal, The Purge, Hostel, Would You Rather, and other stuff went through my head, and I Read More …
I had a nightmare last night where I was in a dark place. All I could see were skeleton demons flying around and then towards me. I was fortunate enough to have friends with me–protective friends. I was shaking in terror. Those flying creatures tried to tell me something, but I refused to listen. Some Read More …
I smoke. Secretly. I still encounter people who say smoking is harmful. They tell me of all people. A pack of cigarettes lasts me a month. How many things do I have to do secretly without being judged? How long will I have to hide the real me from people? Maybe I’m everybody’s clown. No, Read More …
I swear to God that I will get a gun. For the apocalypse.
Beautiful moments never last for long, and you know it. Once it’s over, you light a cigarette. At least you know when it’s over. A cigarette prepares you for the worst of the day and another one when you’re through. That’s how life is at the moment. You go dancing, but it’s not the same Read More …
The new year has only just begun, and I’m already under time pressure. I need to get my driver’s license and sort out my plans for returning to England. Also, I want to get on with my writing and start reading again. I’m spending too much time revising for my theory test. I failed it Read More …
