P-chan's messy head
Sun Square Mars—How do you navigate the suffocating emotions towards productive and creative outlets when you don’t have the means to recharge? This is when the craving for escape becomes the strongest, but still, it’s not strong enough to convince me to do what I need to do. Having just one foot out the door Read More …
You look at people, and they bore the hell out of you because you won’t ever know them. Their facade is intact, whereas yours is not. Why do they make all that effort to hide what’s beneath? Most human interaction is surface-level, and it makes me want to cry sometimes. Not many people enjoy bonding Read More …
It is funny and weird that I stumbled across someone who is currently doing the same master’s degree as I did in 2010—same class, same tutor. Of course, it had me reminiscing about that time. But what bothers me the most about all that is realising how fast ten years can pass and how soon Read More …
Over a month ago, I told my close friends something I was going to do, and they all stood by me and agreed it was for the better. I have always been firm with my decisions and would do everything I deemed right. But I failed to stay firm. The same applies to last year Read More …
One chance after the other and facing your own faults for not speaking up earlier. Some people can only bottle up anxiety, anger, and frustration for so long. But some people don’t do that. They don’t waste time with second chances; they act fast and order immediate results. So you continue to put your own Read More …
When people ask me why I like to read violent stories so much, they have no idea how I connect with fiction. It’s not reality. But the regular non-fiction reader often doesn’t know how to approach fiction books. When I first read American Psycho in 2005, I was going through a phase where I would’ve Read More …
For a moment, I thought I may need an ADHD assessment, which is bullshit. I suppose I was trying to look for something new to explore, except that self-diagnosis isn’t a medical diagnosis. However, you still know yourself the best and want to do something about the negativity holding you back. And taking that first Read More …
It has been a good ten years or more since I thought I had a stalker from Virginia. I knew for a fact that an ex (from almost 20 years ago) was stalking me for a long time, and I had good reasons to believe that. Though based in the UK, I thought he was Read More …
Did you know that without healthy gutters to redirect stormwater away from your property, you could risk a series of problems like a basement flood, roof and foundation damage, and water damage in your house siding? I write about these things regularly, so I suppose I know what I’m talking about, except that it’s easier Read More …
There aren’t many words in the song “Eat The Elephant,” but there are enough to cover the essential occurrences in the past month or year. Maynard sings about a looming omnipresence, but I have to define omnipresence in my own terms (without wanting to be solipsistic). It’s the presence of everybody else but you; it’s Read More …
