50 – Get to know me

1. What’s your favourite colour? Green
2. If you could be any animal, what would you be? An eagle

3. If you could only eat one type of food for the rest of your life, what would it be? Noodles

4. Have you ever felt any form of attraction towards a relation? Yes

5. If you woke up one day to find you were the only person on Earth, what would you do? Go outside, strip and practise handstands

6. What is your idea of perfection? A mutual sentiment and the ability to complete a project

7. What’s your happiest memory? Tutorials

8. What’s your biggest regret? What’s the point in that

9. Would you consider yourself to be sexually dominant or submissive, or fluctuating? Fluctuating

10. Which fictional character do you find yourself identifying with the most? Samsa and Jane Eyre

11. Which real-world figure (historical/contemporary/personal) do you find yourself identifying with the most? I don’t know, because I don’t know them in person

12. Is there any period in time you would prefer to have been born in, past, present or future? No

13. Which country do you consider to be your “home”? Germany

14. Presuming you would live to old age, where would you ideally like to spend the end of your days? In a flat in Santa Monica

15. You find yourself awoken by a series of loud, rapid knocks on your door at 4 in the morning. They stop, but you still decide to venture outside only to discover an empty corridor; you are startled by a sound at your feet, which alerts you to the presence of a baby stranded in a carrier.
What is your first thought? What is your first action? Grab the phone and dial 999 or 911

16. What was your favourite childhood toy? What happened to it? Lego, whatever happened to them, I don’t know. Also, my blue little pony smelt like heaven

17. Do you consider yourself a leader, a follower, or separate and independent of groups? Separate

18. Do you experience any form of a recurring dream? Yes, all the time

19. Do you think your life would be better if you were an only child? No

20. Do you resent your parents for passing on their genes to you? They couldn’t help it; I’m done attaching blame to others

21. Would you resent your ex for forgetting about you completely and finding happiness with someone else? Resentment is no longer valid

22. What is your preferred method of travel? Train or car

23. If you consume mind-altering substances of any form, what is your motivation for doing so? 60% curiosity, 30% naivety, 10% carelessness

24. Have you ever truly been in love? No

25. Do you ever find yourself greatly wanting to do something but find yourself unable to push yourself to? If so, how does that make you feel? I don’t accept defeatism like that

26. Do you think you could ever find happiness if you were obese? No

27. Could you ever sacrifice yourself for another? No, but if it comes to it, you’ll never know

28. Did your parents raise you properly? Did anyone?

29. Were you to witness a crime and were the only person around, would you intervene? It depends on the danger involved, but I’m not a bystander

30. What’s the longest amount of time you think you could lay still for? 20 minutes

31. Do you have trouble letting others take care of you? Yes

32. If you were to be represented by a flag, what pattern and what three colours would it display? Black background with my green initial in the middle and a beige eagle next to it, wings spread open

33. What do you consider to be your greatest achievement? Independence, individuality and creative productions

34. You are walking in a park and find a little girl sitting on the ground alone playing with a doll. She asks you if you’d play with her. How do you respond? No

35. Upon death, would you want your organs to be donated? I would donate just one organ, and then I’d want to be frozen

36. If given six months to live, what would you do with that time? Quit my job and leave without a word

37. Do you believe in God? Why? Apathetic agnostic means I don’t give a shit

38. Do you believe in the form of life after death? I believe in a walking conscience

39. Have you ever had a traumatising experience? Yes

40. If you discovered your best friend was having an affair, how would you react? Inquire about their happiness

41. If you discovered your best friend’s partner was having an affair, how would you react? Confront

42. Do you believe in freedom? It’s all in the mind, therefore debatable

43. Does our species have a hopeful future or are we doomed to destruction? Earth won’t hold us for another 1000 years, will it?

44. Do you consider yourself above most other people, beneath them, or largely on par? We’re all in the same boat

45. Do you write to live out the life you would rather lead or express what you feel you can’t when communicating directly with others? Mainly the latter

46. What do you think your legacy will be… how will you be remembered? The girl who liked Ham on Rye

47. What is the purpose of your specific existence? To write it down

48. When dealing with others’ mistakes, are you easier or harder on them than you are on your own mistakes? Easier

49. Do you seek clarity through others’ insight, or do you hope or expect to find the answers from within? View from all angles and listen to music during the evaluation

50. What do you do if, through all your searching and asking, after finding no definitive, satisfying conclusion, you come to realise the answer hasn’t really eluded you, but that you actually chose to ignore it because it’s not the one you wanted? I’ll have to continue nonetheless


Thank you, F.                 

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